I was really looking forward to getting to work today so much so that I was awake way before the alarm went off at seven. Thoughts of seeing my beautiful lady after four days of being parted made my journey to work very easy, it was as though someone went and fitted a motor to my bike. I parked it in the barn as usual and went to the potting shed to change in to my house shoes and was at the hall in plenty of time. The door was unlocked so I just went in and set about filling the log boxes. It took four baskets in all and I saw no one during the time it took to do the job. I just got finished as the two cleaning ladies arrived and then the housekeeper who lives in the flat upstairs appeared and I could hear them all talking while I was sweeping up in the cellar. I was hanging around waiting for Lady Alex to come down but there was no sign of her when I got finished sweeping so I went up and joined the ladies in the pantry. They were talking about someone who had just had a baby but stopped when they noticed me stood there. The housekeeper asked if there was anything I wanted or was I just loitering with intent. I’m not really sure what she meant so I just told her straight out that I was waiting for Lady Alex. She then asked if she was expecting me.
‘Well, no more than usual, I have to see her to see what she wants me to do today’, I said.
Angela then chips in with the devastating comment that I either need to find my own jobs today or go and find somewhere out of the way to take it easy because they weren’t expecting to see Lady Alex today because she was having one of her off days. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, it was like someone tore the heart right out of me. I could have cried but had to show no emotion as usual, hopefully I hid my immense disappointment from everyone there. It seems she came home as planned yesterday and was in a mood and has locked herself away in her room with instructions not to be disturbed. Apparently she hasn’t eaten or anything during that time. I wouldn’t mind but no one seemed bothered. As much as I wanted to go and see for myself if she was okay there was nothing I could do so I went to the potting shed and had a sit down and a think.
She had said the other day for me to check out the greenhouse heaters if I wanted something to do some time so I got them all out and then had to go to the office to say that I was collecting two Propane bottles from the farm. I have to tell them in the office so they can book it to the hall. As it happened the farm manager was in the office with the secretary when I got there and he said to help myself and if I needed more to just let him know, he seems a nice man.
I have a little tractor and a trailer for use in the gardens so I got that started in order to fetch the propane, all this was helping me take my mind of the utter disappointment. Anyway I got the heaters going okay and then after lunch I dug some tree roots up that were sticking out of a path, Lady Alex said his Lordship nearly fell over one last time he was round the garden so we’d best remove them before he brakes his neck. I was tempted to raise them a little more!
I almost slipped up tonight whilst having dinner. I didn’t really feel like eating and was picking at my food and thinking about stuff when mum suddenly said, ‘What’s the matter with it’?
I had to think quick and said, ‘Nothing, I feel a bit sick that’s all’.
This wasn’t a lie, I’d been feeling pretty sick on and off all day.
‘More like love sick if I know anything about anything my boy’, she replied.
I tried to laugh it off but then my little brother chipped in by announcing my love is Joanne! I told him to shut up as he didn’t know what he was talking about but he wasn’t deterred one little bit. In fact my obvious annoyance just seemed to spur him on to tell all about the outing to the bowling with her the other night.
‘Aye, she’s become a bonnie lass’, said dad feeling the need to add his little bit to my woes.
‘Well sitting there picking at your food isn’t going to achieve anything, girls like that don’t sit on the shelf long, you need to get in there and let her know how you feel because if you don’t someone else will an’ no mistake’ said mum.
I had to smile because I thought if only she knew what she was telling me to do. I wondered what their reaction would be if I came right out and told them, I reckon it might have shut them up if nothing else – or laughed so much they fell off their chairs. Anyway I wasn’t in the mood to be amused for long and came up here to my room out of the way and to write this although I have to confess to not really feeling in the mood for writing tonight.
I would like to thank Lady Enigma for her comment, don’t worry about not being able to offer advice as I don’t even take my own advice on this matter so I doubt I would take that of anyone else. I do appreciate you comments though.
‘Well, no more than usual, I have to see her to see what she wants me to do today’, I said.
Angela then chips in with the devastating comment that I either need to find my own jobs today or go and find somewhere out of the way to take it easy because they weren’t expecting to see Lady Alex today because she was having one of her off days. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, it was like someone tore the heart right out of me. I could have cried but had to show no emotion as usual, hopefully I hid my immense disappointment from everyone there. It seems she came home as planned yesterday and was in a mood and has locked herself away in her room with instructions not to be disturbed. Apparently she hasn’t eaten or anything during that time. I wouldn’t mind but no one seemed bothered. As much as I wanted to go and see for myself if she was okay there was nothing I could do so I went to the potting shed and had a sit down and a think.
She had said the other day for me to check out the greenhouse heaters if I wanted something to do some time so I got them all out and then had to go to the office to say that I was collecting two Propane bottles from the farm. I have to tell them in the office so they can book it to the hall. As it happened the farm manager was in the office with the secretary when I got there and he said to help myself and if I needed more to just let him know, he seems a nice man.
I have a little tractor and a trailer for use in the gardens so I got that started in order to fetch the propane, all this was helping me take my mind of the utter disappointment. Anyway I got the heaters going okay and then after lunch I dug some tree roots up that were sticking out of a path, Lady Alex said his Lordship nearly fell over one last time he was round the garden so we’d best remove them before he brakes his neck. I was tempted to raise them a little more!
I almost slipped up tonight whilst having dinner. I didn’t really feel like eating and was picking at my food and thinking about stuff when mum suddenly said, ‘What’s the matter with it’?
I had to think quick and said, ‘Nothing, I feel a bit sick that’s all’.
This wasn’t a lie, I’d been feeling pretty sick on and off all day.
‘More like love sick if I know anything about anything my boy’, she replied.
I tried to laugh it off but then my little brother chipped in by announcing my love is Joanne! I told him to shut up as he didn’t know what he was talking about but he wasn’t deterred one little bit. In fact my obvious annoyance just seemed to spur him on to tell all about the outing to the bowling with her the other night.
‘Aye, she’s become a bonnie lass’, said dad feeling the need to add his little bit to my woes.
‘Well sitting there picking at your food isn’t going to achieve anything, girls like that don’t sit on the shelf long, you need to get in there and let her know how you feel because if you don’t someone else will an’ no mistake’ said mum.
I had to smile because I thought if only she knew what she was telling me to do. I wondered what their reaction would be if I came right out and told them, I reckon it might have shut them up if nothing else – or laughed so much they fell off their chairs. Anyway I wasn’t in the mood to be amused for long and came up here to my room out of the way and to write this although I have to confess to not really feeling in the mood for writing tonight.
I would like to thank Lady Enigma for her comment, don’t worry about not being able to offer advice as I don’t even take my own advice on this matter so I doubt I would take that of anyone else. I do appreciate you comments though.
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