Tuesday, 16 February 2010

Is This The End?

Today everything started great, how could it not after yesterday? When I got done with the logs which didn’t take long I found Lady Alex in the pantry having a go at the ladies for putting used light bulbs back in the cupboard saying how they had her running around half the morning trying to find a good one. I thought she was telling them in a pleasant manner but no doubt they had plenty to talk about after she dismissed them about their business. She then turned to me and asked if I went through the seed list and what did I think. I was happy enough with what she chose to grow but I suggested that we grow the Pansies for Winter/Spring rather than the summer and she was happy enough about that and said for me to meet her at the Hall at two and we would go and see Mr Fenwick about filling the order and while there I could have a look if there was anything else I needed.

I was at the hall for two as told and this time Lady Alex was ready and waiting. God damn my dick started getting excited the minute I saw her, she was hot hot hot dressed the same as I remember her that first time I saw her. How she gets in to those jeans I don’t know, and those boots –sigh! She picked up her bag and I followed totally mesmerised and nearly walked in to the back of her when she suddenly stopped and asked if I would drive.

‘Yes I can do if you trust me’ I replied jokingly.

Then she did that light bulb thing again like she did yesterday as she passed me the keys saying with the devils own smile on her face, ‘Don’t worry - if you have an accident I won’t hold it against you’.

She said this in her official boss tone of voice but the look was that of a devil woman, I was left in no doubt what she was talking about and straight away thought about the comment
Paul Wynn left on my blog – I never thought to take his advice now I felt sure I was going to pay for the oversight as I could already feel the well filling and we hadn’t even set off yet.

As with our last outing we took his lordships discovery that he uses for the shoot days and when he’s staying here. Once on the way she went in to friends mode which is way cool and as soon as we got away from the house she put her hand on my thigh and give it what I would say was an affectionate rub and asked, ‘You ok Jake’?

I assumed she was meaning because of what happened yesterday but whatever she was meaning I was okay so I told her so, ‘might be wise to ease up on the leg a bit while I’m driving though’.

‘Jake you can’t be’, she said seemingly surprised although I can’t think why, I mean what does she expect. I think she must like living dangerously because to confirm my intimations she took a quick feel just to make sure what I said was true and on discovering what I said was more than true said, ‘Jake, you’re incorrigible really! It’s like having a little puppy dog going round the place wagging his tail every time he sees me’.

‘I can’t help it miss, you make me this way’.

We’d just arrived at the bridge over the river which is only single lane traffic and I was looking to see what this car was doing so it didn’t dawn on me straight away the significance of what she said and then I thought, and looked at her, ‘what do you mean EVERY time’?

There was a big grin on her face and she raised her eyebrows in a manner that acknowledged my thoughts.

‘How long’? I asked feeling myself colouring up.

‘Well lets put it this way, do you remember when I came to introduce myself and you wiped the dirt from your hands on your trousers’?

‘Yes’ how could I forget.

‘Well if you noticed me hesitate a little it was because I wasn’t sure which you wanted me to shake first’! she said revelling in my embarrassment.

She wasn’t revelling in a nasty way, just like pulling my leg.

‘I’m sorry Jake, I shouldn’t tease, really though its sweet and very flattering. When you get to my age the only guys you seem to have that effect on are the ones you don’t want getting amorous with you’ she said regretfully.

‘You don’t seem that old to me miss’ I said truthfully.

‘Ah, thank you, I’m afraid to disappoint you though, I’m almost twice your age, I was 36 last November, does that shock you’?

That did surprise me and I think it must have showed because she asked if that calmed me down any. Again I was honest and said I was surprised she was that age but it made no difference to any feelings I had for her.

‘You’re a good boy Jake, I’m pleased we’re going to be friends’.

Fenwick’s is like a garden centre but without the plants, she introduced me to Mr Fenwick and his son who then took me out the back to show me the sort of things they stocked while Lady Alex dealt with the seed order with Mr Fenwick.

On the way back to the car which we had to leave on a car park she surprised me by asking, ‘Do you fancy going for a coffee, I need to talk to you about something’.

I said that I didn’t mind as long as she was paying as I didn’t have any money with me. She joked about me being her toy boy and said I could refer to her as aunt in public if I prefered. I assured her that I would do no such thing and that I felt good about being with her.

I asked what she wanted to talk about but she said to wait and asked if I knew anywhere out of the way, I assumed she meant where we wouldn’t be known and I remembered that they had a café at the hiking store I sometimes use so I suggested going there and she seemed okay about it although I felt she was a bit quiet during the ten minutes or so it took to drive there. It seemed like something had happened between us but I didn’t know what.

We got a coffee and went to sit down at the far end out of the way, not that there were many people in. There was a man on his own and a couple who left soon after we sat down.

There was a definite atmosphere come over the whole outing now, as we sat there, it was like the old days when I didn’t dare say anything to her and worse still she wasn’t saying a whole lot to me either until she seemed to make up her mind to tell me what was wrong.

She reached across the table and took my hand and said after a sigh that I could clearly hear, ‘Jake, I know you think a lot of me and no doubt have your own idea’s about us which means more than you know to me and this makes me love you more than I’ve loved anyone for a long time despite the differences between us – but…’.

She stopped short of finishing the sentence and was looking at me like she was still trying to make her mind up to tell me or quit before it was too late. For me this all meant just one thing and I felt a terrible sickening emptiness come over me.

As with any good suspense I’m going to leave it there for today, I will reveal all tomorrow so join me then to see what the lady has on her mind that is so shocking she hesitates to tell me. See if her revelations break my heart, determination, or willingness to make her my own.

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