Today I finished off changing the soil in the greenhouse border, we are going to be growing Tomatoes there in the summer so as Lady Alex wasn’t sure what the gardener grew there last year I suggested to her that we change the soil as its not good to grow the same thing in the same soil for too long and I don’t want any problems with it being my first year.
Whilst I was getting finished off I met my unwitting adversary for the first time. I can’t say I came off best during our first encounter. I’m tempted to say I held my own but lying to myself would be a weakness I can ill afford – we learn from our mistakes so if we kid ourselves that we are never wrong how can we learn. I was sort of hoping he would be an old bad tempered sort of guy or similar but I guess if you are a lady you could find him fairly attractive, quite charming and friendly. Whilst I don’t consider this a setback to my plans it would have been easier had he been different. The thing I am kicking my arse about though is the fact that at one point I felt compassion for him. I mean for goodness sake, what’s the point in loading up the cannon with two cannon balls and then feel sorry for what it might do to him and question whether it’s moral. I can’t tell you how angry I am with myself for that. I must remember that it’s his happiness or mine and not both. So tonight I’m bashing my brain with determination music.
Whilst I was getting finished off I met my unwitting adversary for the first time. I can’t say I came off best during our first encounter. I’m tempted to say I held my own but lying to myself would be a weakness I can ill afford – we learn from our mistakes so if we kid ourselves that we are never wrong how can we learn. I was sort of hoping he would be an old bad tempered sort of guy or similar but I guess if you are a lady you could find him fairly attractive, quite charming and friendly. Whilst I don’t consider this a setback to my plans it would have been easier had he been different. The thing I am kicking my arse about though is the fact that at one point I felt compassion for him. I mean for goodness sake, what’s the point in loading up the cannon with two cannon balls and then feel sorry for what it might do to him and question whether it’s moral. I can’t tell you how angry I am with myself for that. I must remember that it’s his happiness or mine and not both. So tonight I’m bashing my brain with determination music.
Today was also the first payday for me, I get paid every two weeks. The money goes straight in the bank so I don’t actually get to see it. I’ve already spent £20 of it on some 10kg ankle weights which I use to train for the long distance walks I do. They should come next week so now the longer days are coming I will be able to get out at night for a bit of a walk.
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