I woke this morning feeling a little apprehensive about the day ahead. Unlike yesterday there was no doubt about my feelings for the lady and I think it was this more than anything that frightened me. I still knew that any of the dreams that filled my head were only ever going to be dreams but I’ve somehow convinced myself that somewhere, somehow there may be some crumbs of comfort left out for me somewhere.
This morning there wasn’t as many logs to bring up because I’d filled everything up yesterday so I was finished before Lady Alex put in an appearance. While I waited one of the house ladies got me changing a light bulb in a passageway. When Lady Alex did come down she greeted us a whole rather than as individuals, I much prefer the up close approach to be honest, this other way left me feeling a little neglected! She asked if I had made out the shopping list which I had and checked it about ten times as I didn’t want anything to go wrong. She said I was to come to the hall around 2 then we would be back in time for me finishing work. As a way of dismissing me she said for me to carry on as yesterday if it wasn’t too cold out. She was a bit surprised when I told her that I’d finished except for taking away the rubbish and I didn’t know what she wanted doing with that. She said to leave it until she had time to show me and if I wanted I could make a start on tidying out the old conservatory so that is what I spent all morning doing.
I was ringing the back door bell at two as instructed, the housekeeper answered the door and said to wait in the pantry which is the room just inside the backdoor. I’m not sure why they call it a pantry as its used as the laundry room. It was about ten minutes before Lady Alex arrived apologising for keeping me waiting. It was well worth the wait though as she looked so beautiful in her own plain sort of way. She had on brown tartan trousers that complimented her rear to perfection unfortunately she went and put on her long coat so that was the end of fine views from that region. It’s perhaps as well as she was distraction enough at the best of times.
As we were driving off she asked, ‘Do you drive Jake?’.
‘I have passed my driving test but can’t afford a car yet’ I replied.
‘Oh, so if I need a chauffer anytime I know who to call then’ she said with a smile.
I told her that I think I would need more practise on my own before I drove someone like her around.
After this there followed a period of silence that grew to be uncomfortable in the extreme. While she had been talking to me I had managed to relax but now I could feel tension building. I was trying to think of something to say but the more I thought the less I could think. Coming from a family that had drilled in to us from an early age that children should be seen and not heard or another favourite ‘speak when you’re spoken to’ there was never going to be much hope of me kick starting the conversation. As much as I wanted to be with my lady if she had told me to get out there and then I would have been very pleased to do so.
Suddenly her voice cut across my thoughts like a rifle shot.
‘Are you always this quiet Jake or do you have something on your mind’?
I have the most beautiful sexy woman in the whole world on my mind, I was wondering how could her husband be away from her for such long periods, maybe that’s what I should have told her and got it over with one way or the other but instead I chickened out and replied that I am a quiet person but also a little shy with people I don’t know, which is quite true but not necessarily the whole reason in this instance.
‘I’m not a monster you know Jake. The only real difference between us is the money’ she said in a sympathetic and sincere voice.
I could think of lots of differences between us besides money but I think what she was giving me was an invitation to be myself rather than a lecture on our different lifestyles so there wasn’t much I could say against her comment.
Anyway before I could answer she reached over and gently gave my right forearm a squeeze saying, ‘Try and relax, and if it helps think of me as a workmate rather than Lady Alex, save the pedestal for his lordship, he appreciates that sort of thing more than I’.
I looked right in to her eyes, they were so kind and smiling, I knew she was right and I don’t want to be a jerk with her, she is too nice for that so I decided there and then to try and be myself if that’s what she really wanted and it was her own fault if I said something she didn’t like.
‘I haven’t met your husband yet but I’m sure you would look much better on a pedestal than he would any day’, I replied, hoping I didn’t make it sound too corny.
‘Well I don’t know about that but the thing is we have to be formal when others are around but when we’re working alone together like now, we have to be more relaxed and open or the whole thing is going to be pretty gruesome don’t you think’?
I nodded in agreement, I knew exactly what she meant and so as to show I was trying jokingly added,
‘Like back there you mean’!
She seemed to like that and laughed, ‘Yes that was jolly gruesome indeed, I thought perhaps it was my driving that was leaving you speechless’.
The rest of the day has been great, its really strange what happened and so hard to explain how what she said has made me feel so different. I guess the fact that she said to think of her as a workmate when we’re doing something together is the crumb that I was hoping for. I mean, workmates is cool isn’t it!
This morning there wasn’t as many logs to bring up because I’d filled everything up yesterday so I was finished before Lady Alex put in an appearance. While I waited one of the house ladies got me changing a light bulb in a passageway. When Lady Alex did come down she greeted us a whole rather than as individuals, I much prefer the up close approach to be honest, this other way left me feeling a little neglected! She asked if I had made out the shopping list which I had and checked it about ten times as I didn’t want anything to go wrong. She said I was to come to the hall around 2 then we would be back in time for me finishing work. As a way of dismissing me she said for me to carry on as yesterday if it wasn’t too cold out. She was a bit surprised when I told her that I’d finished except for taking away the rubbish and I didn’t know what she wanted doing with that. She said to leave it until she had time to show me and if I wanted I could make a start on tidying out the old conservatory so that is what I spent all morning doing.
I was ringing the back door bell at two as instructed, the housekeeper answered the door and said to wait in the pantry which is the room just inside the backdoor. I’m not sure why they call it a pantry as its used as the laundry room. It was about ten minutes before Lady Alex arrived apologising for keeping me waiting. It was well worth the wait though as she looked so beautiful in her own plain sort of way. She had on brown tartan trousers that complimented her rear to perfection unfortunately she went and put on her long coat so that was the end of fine views from that region. It’s perhaps as well as she was distraction enough at the best of times.
As we were driving off she asked, ‘Do you drive Jake?’.
‘I have passed my driving test but can’t afford a car yet’ I replied.
‘Oh, so if I need a chauffer anytime I know who to call then’ she said with a smile.
I told her that I think I would need more practise on my own before I drove someone like her around.
After this there followed a period of silence that grew to be uncomfortable in the extreme. While she had been talking to me I had managed to relax but now I could feel tension building. I was trying to think of something to say but the more I thought the less I could think. Coming from a family that had drilled in to us from an early age that children should be seen and not heard or another favourite ‘speak when you’re spoken to’ there was never going to be much hope of me kick starting the conversation. As much as I wanted to be with my lady if she had told me to get out there and then I would have been very pleased to do so.
Suddenly her voice cut across my thoughts like a rifle shot.
‘Are you always this quiet Jake or do you have something on your mind’?
I have the most beautiful sexy woman in the whole world on my mind, I was wondering how could her husband be away from her for such long periods, maybe that’s what I should have told her and got it over with one way or the other but instead I chickened out and replied that I am a quiet person but also a little shy with people I don’t know, which is quite true but not necessarily the whole reason in this instance.
‘I’m not a monster you know Jake. The only real difference between us is the money’ she said in a sympathetic and sincere voice.
I could think of lots of differences between us besides money but I think what she was giving me was an invitation to be myself rather than a lecture on our different lifestyles so there wasn’t much I could say against her comment.
Anyway before I could answer she reached over and gently gave my right forearm a squeeze saying, ‘Try and relax, and if it helps think of me as a workmate rather than Lady Alex, save the pedestal for his lordship, he appreciates that sort of thing more than I’.
I looked right in to her eyes, they were so kind and smiling, I knew she was right and I don’t want to be a jerk with her, she is too nice for that so I decided there and then to try and be myself if that’s what she really wanted and it was her own fault if I said something she didn’t like.
‘I haven’t met your husband yet but I’m sure you would look much better on a pedestal than he would any day’, I replied, hoping I didn’t make it sound too corny.
‘Well I don’t know about that but the thing is we have to be formal when others are around but when we’re working alone together like now, we have to be more relaxed and open or the whole thing is going to be pretty gruesome don’t you think’?
I nodded in agreement, I knew exactly what she meant and so as to show I was trying jokingly added,
‘Like back there you mean’!
She seemed to like that and laughed, ‘Yes that was jolly gruesome indeed, I thought perhaps it was my driving that was leaving you speechless’.
The rest of the day has been great, its really strange what happened and so hard to explain how what she said has made me feel so different. I guess the fact that she said to think of her as a workmate when we’re doing something together is the crumb that I was hoping for. I mean, workmates is cool isn’t it!
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